We write romance, right? Hearwarming, mushy, (maybe) trashy, bittersweet, emotional, but above all, romance. In my quest to staple my butt to the chair and write, I’ve noticed my productivity resembles one of those shaky rollercoaster rides that was put together by someone of dubuious skill, dexterity and mental capacity. I sit, I start to write, sometimes it flows and sometimes, someone must have forgotten to turn on the spout. The next day, I go back over what I wrote and most of the time, I can’t help but think “eewww”.. did I really write that? The whole process reminded me of beer goggling. You know what I’m talking about. That amazingly hot guy from last night’s party who could beat Fabio in his early days? Well in the harsh light of the morning, he looks more like a recent attendee of a Star Trek convention.
Just like beer goggling, I find myself writing goggling. With a fresh set of the same eyes, I look over my writing and like many of our sisters have done with the Star Trek guy, I look at what I wrote and think, “Did I really do that? But it looked so good last night.”
On a similar note, the same can be said for inspiration. Is it true that the stars have to align with the right constellation for me to feel and be productive? Or is this an excuse for not writing? When do you allow the overwhelming moments of life to interfere and when do you say that enough is enough and you can’t use that as a crutch forever?
So what exactly is my spoke in this wheel this time? Okay, I’ll spill the beans. My grandma is sick. Really sick. Hospital sick. Between that, starting a new job, sick kids, new daycare, blah, blah, blah, I’m finding it very hard to feel productive. And productive that’s emotion related romance is even harder. Or maybe it’s just me. Maybe others use those tough times as fodder for creativity.
That’s what I want to know. If you’re feeling down, gloomy or uninspired, do you work better or worse?